One morning you wake up and fear has taken a backseat to extraordinary possibility.
Fear grows in darkness; if you think there’s a bogeyman around, turn on the light.
Beneath fear, there is an adventure; a dance of full life begging to be free. Simply whisper, “yes”.
When we finally make the agreement with the unknown - to live in that place of not knowing what will happen - We don’t get to change the rules mid-stream. When a new situation arises that shakes the core of us - takes us back to some frightened childhood time - We don’t then get to demand then that we know what will happen.
Opening up to faith is not situational. It is a permanent state of belief, trust and fully turning ourselves over. Those times that catch us up short and take us again to the all too familiar fear of having to know where we are going, are sign posts along the way, reminding us that we’re never quite there. When we pause in the core of our unease, there is a calming familiarity that says, “You’ve been here before. Let go, and you’ll move on to the place that cradles and cares for you.”
It is not the outcome that provides us with that sense of “ah”, but finding wholeness and peace in the center, that will never let us down. This is faith.
In the man-made, man-created world there is a constant sense that things start and then stop. That things do not last forever, but come and then go. Once blissfully within our grasp, we have felt them slip away, and believe that they are gone forever.
This is our fear about the good things in life - That we may possess them, but then they will be gone. Before we can even enjoy the person, the experience, the savory moment, we have worried them out of our lives by believing that they are only temporary, only brief visitors.
What a miracle instead to envision that everything good, every lesson, every life-changing; game-changing person and experience is with us forever. That the expansiveness of our world is around us constantly and never leaves our side. We have access to all of it…….always. It is the sum total of our being-ness that we are surrounded by all of the components that make up who we are, long after we’ve forgotten the experience and effect it has had on us.
Wildly throw your arms open and for once, rather than feeling a crushing constricted-ness, feel the gift of the teaming-with-life, invisible world around you. It’s all at your disposal. It is you. All experience;all possibility. Believe.
We make things more difficult than they are. Look around the natural world. Snakes shed their skin without thought, animals fight, then stop, holding onto nothing from the encounter. The struggle inside of our head is an evolutionary human-centric fate. Underneath that heady-though-based-struggle, is the ability to be as free as our animal brothers and sisters. Running wildly, no thought for consequences, simply acting fully in the present moment. That is life; that is freedom.
We all fear the worst that can happen, and do everything to avoid coming into contact with self-created fearful fates. Our fear is not protecting us from the worst, but protecting us from fully living and then dealing with the consequences. We are spared some pain, but at what expense? The joy- fully-living aliveness that we were born into. Today, I open my arms widely and call in the turbulence that will bring me to freedom.
Resist nothing….Absolutely nothing, even in the face of crippling fear. Acceptance is not conditional. You don’t get to choose where you accept or practice non-resistence. Every minute, every opportunity, every new challenge that life brings to your door, requires your complete, uncompromising, acceptance.
From there, you tenderly step forward and are moved onto holy ground.
Duality has come to visit today in a big way. Fear and possibility have taken up residence together, each occupying equal space in my fragile body. I want to push one aside and live within the other of these two states of being. Instead, I jump back and forth to opposite sides of a canyon, with a thousand foot drop between.
At times, fear is the only place I know - It begs to consume me. When I’m tucked in it’s grasp, there is such a deep-knowing tinge of possibility, that I’m pulled immediately to the space that tells me that the enormity of all things utterly possible, willl be my new existence - My home.
There is only a perceived battle going on. A co-existence between two states of being that live side-by side, branches out into a new world, where acceptance becomes the pervasive reality. Both serve the purpose of moving everything to a place, where the duality merges into the life demanding to be born.
Today, the first day of 2013, is tinged with powerful possibility and the promise of many twists, turns, and expansive openings in the road. There is a sense of opportunity unfolding, and also a knowing that 2013 will be a year of many firsts. The key to all of this is remaining fully and wildly open and saying YES to things that at first appear foreign or unknown. Fear is not a resident of 2013. It has dropped so far into the background that it is almost unrecognizable. Your old companion, Fear, yields no power in this upcoming year.
Some things are clearly visible today and others are softly seated in the background waiting to eek their way out. All are possible and will move forward at the right time, settling with a new comfort into the home of your heart, mind, and soul. Everything being birthed will be breathed into you and you in turn will breathe them, sometimes gently and sometimes ferociously, back out to the world. Become quiet and you can feel it everywhere.
We tend to fear the unexpected, rather than welcoming the blazing burst of aliveness that it brings to us. I always wonder, who it was who told all of us, that life would be a series of planned events and that we would have control at all over what life brought our way. How is this myth is perpetrated and how does it continue to exist as a universal truth?
We cling to that illusion, despite the fact that every experience that we have on this mortal planet, runs counter to that. Our life experiences are completely unexpected and unplanned; random - falling in love, the meeting of a person who becomes a life-long friend, illness, death and birth - All unexpected.
We awaken this morning believing that we know what our day will bring, when in fact there is absolutely nothing about this day that can be predicted. Would we really want it any other way? To miss the smile of a child that we hadn’t seen coming; the near accident on the freeway that breathes fresh life and gratitude into our hearts; the call telling us the news of the engagement of our child that brings unanticipated joy; the unexpected change that brings our life to a screeching halt and turns us in an entirely new direction.
I find myself longing for a knowing of how everything will unfold, when in reality, I want nothing resembling that in my life. Deep inside, in the place that I’m afraid to go, I long for a wildness that will embrace everything unknown.
Today, I open myself and dance the proclamation that I have breathed in the invitation to rejoice in the unfolding path, yet unseen.